today was one of those days.
i wish there was a way to shut off my brain sometimes, you know.
'cause it's tired.
tired of worrying about the what-ifs & whos-whos.
tired of thinking about all of the pain & suffering people are enduring all around me.
tired of seeing family & friends broken & hurting.
tired of hearing my ellie cry every night 'cause she's all of a sudden scared of the dark.
tired of not being able to keep up on the housework.
tired of planning it all & not finishing well.
tired of the small mishaps all day long.
(like my washing machine overflowing twice tonight & flooding my garage with no husband home to fix it).
tired of reading about cancer & how many lives it steals.
tired.
but then i am gently reminded of a God who never grows tired.
never grows weary.
who begs me to cast my cares on him.
'cause he cares for me.
and then i am a puddle of tears in my lap.
oh, how many times i've heard that verse.
and still it means the same.
verse.
after verse.
after verse.
after verse.
and a ton more!
like water for my thirsty soul.
so why does it take me so dang long to give it him?
Lord, forgive my stubborn, stony heart.
so tonight, i'm gonna choose joy & thankfulness instead.
thankful for old friends & new and all the life they bring.
thankful for a stubborn third child who brings me so much stinkin' joy it's crazy.
thankful for my twins that will always have each other for a good laugh.
thankful for my husband who keeps me going. & loves me even when i'm not me. he's so good with me guys, it's ridiculous.
thankful that my kids get to hang out with their great grandparents. so rad.
thankful for my mom & her 62 years of life (& that she happily saves me in my meltdowns as my washers overflowing).
tired, yet thankful.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2 NIV
g'night friends.
thanks for listening to me ramble.
xo
7 comments:
Xoxo.
perfect.
thanks for this post. it touched my heart. i get tired from the sufferings in this world too...i loved those verses.
and i also loved your skirt outfit with record shirt.
and eden's deer pants and herringbone ones. super cute.
i love you!!!!
i'm right there with you!!!
wanting to give in, but feeling the tug of JESUS, who is RIGHT THERE to pick us up when we are too weak to know how to move forward!!
the decisions, the heartbreaks, the trials, they can SO overwhelm us....but you are LOVED molly girl, you ARE!!!!
i have to share this, because i read it today and it so fits (it's long, sorry)
[from the book, Give Them Grace]
"Our Weakness is the place where we learn to depend on his power. When we’re stripped of everything that we thought we could trust in, when we’re absolutely desperate for help, the Lord moves into our circumstance and demonstrates his power. Sometimes he shows us his power by changing the circumstance, miraculously accomplishing what we could never accomplish. At other times he shows us how his sustaining grace enables us to endure situations that otherwise would crush us. Sometimes he makes us feel his strengthening arm upholding us in the trial. At other times he teaches us to walk by faith, believing that his arm is there even though we don’t feel it. It is in these varied circumstances that we learn of his greatness, his sustaining grace, and his ability to glorify himself in ways we would never have imagined."
Amen? amen :)
love you!!!
oh, friend Molly, I know just what you mean. I think tired and weary has been my mode of operation lately. And I'm tired of being tired and weary.
But you're right... God is good, He's always there, and there is SO much to be thankful for.
I have no other words of encouragement, just a simple thank you for sharing your heart, and for sharing those verses too. We ALL need those.
hugs. :) xoxoxoxoxoxo
This brings great joy and pleasure to my heart to know the one God selected for me is so genuine, loving, kind and let's me play hockey. Molly loves when I admit to crying because it rarely happens, so here it is.....
Oh I could have said everything bandofbrothers said!!! I need those pants for my baby!
Great post, great reminders to be thankful. And seeing what others are thankful for really inspires me and reminds me of what I have that I can be thankful for too.
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