and stress too much.
and cry too much.
and there are times that i laugh too hard.
and smile too big.
and dream so loud.
there are times that my iphoto gallery flashes before me and i get that feeling.
that feeling of deep gratitude.
a feeling in my throat, that, oh my, this is going way too fast.
a feeling of wanting to hold on to time.
also, a feeling of pure jump-up-and-down joy.
watching all of those pictures flash before my eyes of life.
blurry pictures. good pictures. "delete-able" pictures.
but, nonetheless, our life. in pictures.
sometimes i also get a feeling of overwhelming emotion, that this is it.
truth is, i have one life here on earth.
with these people.
with my kids.
my family.
my hands+feet.
my voice.
even though only God knows my days, it scares me sometimes.
it gives me a gulp in my throat that i'm not doing enough, being enough.
ALL LIES.
there are times that i'm guilty.
there are times that i need a re-do of my day.
there are times when my heart is hard+stubborn.
because HE lived. and loved....
lil' ol' me.
first.
and all i need to do is love Him back.
and love people.
love my kids.
love my neighbors.
so simple.
yet so hard.
so no matter how many people are hurting, and tired, and broken...
[and man, are there a lot these days]
no matter the happy days.
or the sad...
no matter how clogged with crap my brain feels a lot of days...
i'm gonna keep taking pictures.
keep holding onto Jesus through the throws of life.
keep dreaming of heaven.
keep loving the people God puts in my path.
keep thanking God for each new day.
the good & the bad.
the blurry & the happy.
knowing & believing that i don't always have to understand why He gives & takes away.
keep trusting HIM.
as long as my life screams His name at the end of the day, whatever the cost, it will be worth it all.
Lord, make this the cry of my heart. change me. turn my words into actions.
that's what i want in this life.
HIM.
[and there's some random thoughts, straight from my head, for this lovely thursday.]
9 comments:
I needed to read this tonight!! Thank you so much!
This made me all misty. Thank you for your honesty and beautiful words. Why can't I have more friends like you living down the street? I need perspective like this much more often these days.
<3
PS: The nekkid baby photo just slays me. Adorbs.
thanks for those words. i needed to hear them. that i don't have to feel quilty for not doing big enough stuff.
the truth is, i need the little stuff yanked out of my heart. the feeding of my mind with endless prattle of what the world values. that need to go to the dogs.
anyhow, these pictures were precious an my absolute favorite was the kids praying at the dinner table.
and did you know it's my dream one day to vacay in a cute lil camper trailer like that one day?
well, now you know.
You are a GREAT mother! I can see a lot of love in your days. Eden, YUMYUMYUMYUMMMMMMYUYUMMMM.
This as good for me soul.
you are so beautiful and such a motivation and inspiration! i LOVE this!!!
xoxo.
i love this soooo much.
so so so much.
like miss katy said, it's good for my soul.
good stuff poopers <3 kiss kiss hug hug!
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