[you've been warned]
i've never made it this far in pregnancy [and mad props to those who have] cause this is no joke.
not for the weak of heart, sissy-la-las.
uh-uh.
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| my new life. go ahead. laugh it up. you have my permission. |
first of all, i'm feeling rather large. [and not in charge. hah! not funny.]
my sides feel like they are bruised.
i feel like i'm having one large contraction all. day. long.
my hands+feet+everything feel numb all the time.
she's kicking me, ehem, down there.
nothing fits.
my cankles are still, um, cankles.
i'm hungry.
then i'm not.
but i am.
i can't get enough water.
if i walk anywhere, i feel like she might just fall out.
all the while, everyone is telling me, "oh, this is normal!"
awesome.
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| my sister, my mom, & i. don't ask. (but oh, it makes me so happy. i mean, look at my mom!) |
[okay, that was a bit dramatic.]
but between bed rest the past 2 months [which, let's be honest, i wasn't very good at], 2 kindergartners with a whole lot of energy all the good day long, and a husband on probation, life is a bit much these days.
[especially when i can't even put on my own underwear without dropping them on the floor & carefully stepping into each hole. and still falling over half the time.]
too much? sorry.
see, i told ya.
whiiiiiiine, whine, whine.
groooooaaaaaan.
ahh, i feel a little better already.
on a better note,
i'm craving frosted flakes all day long.
loving this fall weather, [that is s'posed to turn back into summer today or tomorrow? i say, lalalalaaaa].
missing my husband terribly when he's gone.
[he's such a huge help with the girls, i don't think you understand. daddy of the year goes to TIM.]
hoping i'll feel somewhat normal again someday soon.
watching this csec video as i cry my eyes out, scared to death of what's coming my way SO SOON.
[note to self, don't watch csection videos when you're about to have one.]
making a whole lot of new blogs for all ya'll out there.
still waiting for my baby shower pictures. [hint, hint, cough, KARIS!]
nesting a little i guess.
nope, i'm not.
[oh man, that means i'm doomed to be pregnant for life, huh?]
trying to stay positive. hardyharhar.
asking for forgiveness a LOT.
and honestly, just trying to stay afloat while swimming upstream.
life is going by SO fast.
it's swirling round+round+round.
i just keep imagining myself walking by quiet waters,
believing God will refresh my soul.
just like in psalms 23.
hopefully just in time to welcome a new baby into the house :)
oh, let the fun begin.
amen.
14 comments:
just think...every day is one day closer to a chunky monkey baby who will be too big for 0-3 mos clothes.
which, btw, makes a c-section a very happy occasion. ;)
hang in there friend! you are so loved and prayed for. xo
it's okay to whine! you have a free pregnant pass! i totally feel ya. it's not easy at all!! You look awesome in that wheely chair too hahaha i so wish i was there to help scoot you around target and laugh at you a little ;) i am missing such an unforgettable moment!! love you so so much and miss you like crazy crazy crazy!!
ps...that is the greatest pic of you, katy, and your awesome mom!!! i love it! captures your personalities perfectly haha
did you hear on the news today that a girl ran a marathon 39 weeks pregnant last weekend? and she started having contractions during the race but decided to keep going. she finished in 6 hours and then went to the hospital and delivered her baby. cool. i thought of you&me right away. i didn't even put a bra on today.
mollllllllllllllllllllly. you can whine :) it's OK :) then we listen and we pray :) i'm laughing at the comment above, because i also saw that crazy lady on the news at 39 weeks. and then NO JOKE, later emailed my MIL about possibly starting up jogging with roman in the stroller.........AND THEN, i finished the batch of puppy chow that i made on sunday (that's 2 days, puppy chow gone.)
you keep ridin' that scooter girlfriend.
you keep cookin' that babe.
little eden already has an exact moment of entrance all planned out for her. GOD KNOWS. and it's in HIS perfect timing. isn't that nice that you don't and can't even choose? breathe sweet girl. its in his hands. mmmmmm. inhale. fwhooooooooooooo. exhale (hahahaahha. that's me helping your breathing)
isn't great that we are provided helpers. go TIM go.
praying for YOU sweet molly.
smoochy.
I read about the pregnant runner too! I'm not pregnant and will PASS on the marathon. I can't wait to see pictures of the new family of 5! I'm glad you have friends & family who can hang out with you right now : )
I left you a comment, and then it disappeared. Erg. Anywho, you whine with such wit and charm that nobody can possibly mind :). Now stop thinking about that c-section. The second c-section was way worse than the first. Mentally, I mean. I think the good Lord caused my water to break a day before the c-section was scheduled because he knew that if I had to wait one more day, I'd have my baby in a mental institute. That being said, it was no big deal. You've got this. Just don't allow your mind to get the better of you. Oh, and I healed up so much faster the second time around! It was as if my body learned from the first one, and knew what to do. But seriously, don't think about it! Just do it! Praying for you, and your precious Eden! Would love to get together for lunch with you and Dannielle before she makes her appearance!
Oh MOLLY miss MOLLY! So glad you posted, thought you were home face down in a bowl of Frosted Flakes (my fave btw) So I'm very happy you're alive and baby Eden is hanging in there. I cracked up at this post even though you're suffering, IT'S ONLY BECAUSE I feel like I was just there. Praying now, and again and all the time for you and that precious brood of yours. Just think you will have that beautiful baby and then will be sleep deprived and wishing for those cankles back...umm, ya prolly not. Oh and about that marathon gal, Ima not gonna lie, I was eating a pumpkin scone while reading her story, not inspired just thinking "OH COME ON!"
Love you! She'll be here before you know it.EEEK! Praise God for great hubby's, friends, little daughters and all the other wonderful things he has put in your life.
be still your heart...
oh my oh me my poopers!!!! waahhh wahhhh wahhhh... baahhahhh jslashk....
i feel you on the not loving pregnancy....
and im jealous u get a reason to tote around on the target electro cart.
anywhoo, u best be taken it easy..
and i LOVER YOU SO MUCH!
praying for ju and i miss laughing with you..
we need to get one more in before eden takes over zee world!!!
(can u tell i have a runners high... ahhhahhahhahahahha)
k bye. love murph
between this post and katygirl's comment, i don't know whether to laugh or cry it's so dang funny.
that first pic is epic. EPIC. frame it. my fav. pic of the year. hahahaha.
i just got an iphone. La la lalala la...now i'm so cool just like you.
just wanted you to know that I'm loving reading your blog (and my little blog re-design)! hang in there.
I seriously feel like I was JUST in this position. Not kidding. Even though my pregnancy was extremely smooth sailing....near the end, I wasn't a happy mama. Josephine would kick me "down there" all the time, and it was always in public or when I was talking w/someone. I mean, that just knocks you straight out...hahaaa I'm actually laughing right now - at myself. Goodness.
So excited for baby Eden!!!!!
hahaha! Katy's comment! that's awesome.
you're the cutest even when you "whine" that it doesn't seem like whining. I really wish I had that ablity! mine just sounds like... whining. and probably makes people want to hit me in ma face. Now you, on the other hand, I just want to give a big ol' squeeze.
I honestly do think every pregnant woman gets to whine just a wee bit, and you've not had it easy, so let it out a leetle bit. Like Lindsey said, then we can pray for you! "Oh Lord, please don't let Molly severly injure herself while putting on her underwear."
ok. I'll stop, I'm in such a silly mood this morning!!
seriously though. I've been thinking of you almost every day and wondering how you're doing, and I'm so glad you filled us in... and that you're hanging in there. You've got prayers aplenty to keep you afloat and grace in abundance too from our good God and I know you'll make it to the just-right moment when that sweet little Eden (!!!love the name!!!) makes her entrance to this world. I love how you imagine yourself walking by quiet waters. beautiful. He leads you beside them, after all! I'll be praying for extra grace for you in these last days, in the midst of EVERYTHING you're dealing with. Lots and lots of extra grace. what's awesome is that He knows JUST what we need at any given moment! you're taken care of! such a sweet thought. :)
bless Tim for being so wonderful. :)
love you, miss Molly.
ps. that picture of you and your mom and sis is perfection!! xo
I can't believe the little one will be here so soon! Eeeee! And I hear you on the cankles. They were the bane of my pregnant existence. I remember wearing skinny jeans one day (not sure why I thought that was a good idea EVER) and I could hardly get them off at the end of the day. The seams of the jeans were imprinted in my calves for a good three hours afterwards. SEXY!
:)
And I loved Frosted Flakes when I was pregnant, too! You should enjoy Cinnamon Toast Crunch, too. Yummers.
Try to rest as much as you can (LOL, I hated when people told me that…) and count your blessings (as I know you always do). Love you, lady!
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