sometimes i sit and i reread my journal and i always discover so many things...mostly what God has brought me through. today i found a letter i wrote to audrey and ellie when they were fighting for life in the nicu.
audrey grace & ellie joy,
one of my greatest fears is to fail you as a mother...for you to grow up and resent me in some way for messing up and hurting you. well, i have accepted that it's bound to happen for i am only a sinner saved by God's grace. i can only hope to point you to Jesus by the way i live my life, by the way daddy & i raise you, by the words i speak, & the things i do. i hope to take on this responsibility as your mother, holding on tight to God's hand, always seeking Him first in every decision. i'm new at this, so bare with me. i do promise to love you with all that i am, laugh with you, & cry with you. i will teach you all that i know, allowing you to experience all God has for you here. please remember this world is not your home, so don't hold on too tight to it. i love you girls so much. we are so blessed to have both of you as a vital part of our family. i can't wait for all of the things to come. i hope to be your best friend & i'm so thankful you'll always have each other. you are both so beautiful already. i love you. mom
p.s. thanks for the photo session karen! they are beautiful! go see her work here :)
2 comments:
what a sweet letter! the pictures came out great! Thanks for hanging out with me today. I love spending time with you and the girls...the are so so precious! I love how you love them!
What a sweet little letter. I am still teary-eyed. Keep that letter forever and always! You are such a sweet friend and I love you tons!
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